dreamworlds

i am mainly making this to process my feeling on growing older and reconciling with the whole slyvia plath fig tree metaphor. but thats more of a symptom of the greater theme of my work of trying to reconcile everything outside of you against yourself.

i also wanted to make a project that was a bit more representative of me instead of a world i created that i wanted to share. this project is much more personal and autobiographical than other things i have worked on.

for the album im currently studying other artists and making songs without expectations so i can get to the skill level necessary to make the album.

for the short film, i plan on recording it exclusively using webcams over the course of a couple months to a year. i had to get a second phone (a prepaid one for $30) to do this, which was fun to set up. once i have enough footage i'll edit it all together in a style similar to dog star man (but with sound design).

tools used: fl studio, ableton live, premiere pro, obs

im mainly making this project as a way to explore the distinct feeling of dreams/infinite reality i get. it also works as a way to explore the idea of dreamworlds, which are realties that come into existence via your cognition of them and which are defined by distinct feelings

i also really wanted to make an ambient music project that was less focused on songwriting and more on the feeling that came from the texture of the sound

currently, i work by starting with a sample, live signal, or synthesizer and improvise adding effects over it in fl studio. i then take this recording and put it into audacity where i chop and skew the clip until i like every part of it. after i have a decent amoung of clips i structure them together

i'm also exploring incorporating sstv images into the music somehow to depict how the human consciousness processes (or creates) visual information.

tools used: fl studio, ableton

most of the art ive created has been a solo endeavor for one reason or another so its been very rewarding as well as challenging to do collaborative work.

we've tried a bunch of different strategies for collaboration but for right now we usually have one person take the creative lead and have the other offer support to that idea.

we also typically work on time constraints since we live pretty far apart for the majority of the year which ensures that the projects get done and don't get stuck in development hell.

tools used: fl studio, premiere pro, teamwork :)

ive always wanted to be part of a greater community of artists and this has been a great opportunity to get that experience.

it also forces me to get more into creating visual works besides the photos i take which has been challenging but still fun. its also been nice to make small things that will get seen by other people.

for the contributions i typically do, i go into paint.net and arranged photos i've taken along with other graphics i make and mess around until it looks okay

i'm also planning on creating submissions for the zine with other people which will make the collaboration element even more awesome and fun

tools used: paint.net

i made this since it was the 10th volume and andrue wanted everyone to contribute for it! i was a bit busy at the time but i was able to get this done in a day so it wasn't too much trouble.

it was also fun to make something quickly that wouldn't take me several months of work to do :p. plus i learned a decent bit doing it so my next submission will hopefully be much better (im not a big fan of the composition in this one)

i started by finding a photo that i thought would act as a nice background and then blended it with some drawings and other photos. after that i wrote out a bunch of text that felt like the image and put it on the left side. lastly i put a datamoshing effect from website (im not sure which one but if i find it i'll link it).

tools used: paint.net

im not gonna lie the main reason i made this short film is because i was taking an independent film class and need to make an experimental short film for the final project. however, along the way, i realized that making short films is actually really fun and something i want to do with people way more often.

for the most part this entire project was improvised. i had an idea in my head about how it could go and wanted to try it. i based scenes on the environments i had access to and the some technical things i knew i could pull off. the elements i knew before shooting is that the blue projector screen represented a kind of init or abstract state, the protagonist needed to wear a dress shirt and look dishelved, and thats pretty much it. most of the intentional thematic decisions were done while editing and a lot of them were more informed by feeling that logic.

i also created all the sound for this project in the same workflow as the b43ey project which i think gave the film an interesting atmosphere.

tools used: audacity, fl studio, premiere pro

i made this album because i had just really into more conceptual music and also had an inner world that i needed to express. a distinct memory that inspired the album was when i was driving home from prom with the person the album is mainly about (see why i call this a high school album) while listening to have a nice life's deathconsciousness. in the city i live in there is a lot of factories and industrial areas along the edges of the suburban areas and the coldness of that area in the context of night gave me the idea of someone descending into a reality created by their self-punishment and isolation. so in a way the album is very autobiographical as that effectively what i wanted to do. which is why i decided to give the album a nice ending as i thought there was hope at the end of the hardship, which there was.

the development of this album is a real mess since i had no idea what i was doing but generally i would create demos that would inspire narrative beats and then those would inspire more demos. i had to brute force my way through most phases of developing the songs since it was my first time doing vocals, lyrics, mixing, mastering and all that fun stuff. overall im decently happy with the result and enjoy it for what it is, knowing i learned a lot from the experience. plus some sections genuinely are quite good, like the cyclical structure of coyotes, like maybe i was cooking a little bit...

tools used: fl studio, paint.net, audacity